Thinking

So I've been thinking. I've been learning in a different language with a specific method for the past month almost. Pretty much the whole time I've been frustrated and on the verge of giving up. I've had the feeling that the teacher is teaching way over my head and not adjusting the lesson to the different learning styles in the group. As I'm sitting there frustrated I'm constantly thinking about how I teach. I mean I've really been thinking about the past few years I've been teaching. Every child that didn't get it. Every child that was frustrated. Every child that sat in my class and goofed off not because he/she was just silly but because they were bored because they weren't getting it.
On the other hand, I have to speak up when I don't understand something. The teachers here understand the frustration and are willing to help in any way. In order for a person to speak up they must have the right attitude. Education of any kind has a pro-active element to it. If you really want to learn you have to get involved in the learning and not just sit back and blame the teacher. Ask yourself what you can do to better understand. Once you get a positive attitude about learning things get easier.
This trip is just what I wanted. I wanted to get away with the hopes that I would have time for introspection. That I would go back to teaching with a renewed outlook on education and how to teach. I can't say I'm there yet but the learning here is definately breaking me. By the time I leave here I should be okay to go back to the profession that I love. Just a thought.